Wednesday, March 30, 2005
abnormal update
Hmm..yupz.Abnormal,cos this is the first time in ages i actually update on a week day.Today I can go home "quite" early..so yupz..a bit of time surfing the net, do the things i normally do.Intend to start studying at 5.Or maybe 4.45...actually just anytime after i have finished putting up this entry.
So hows the week so far?Not too bad.2 tests down. 1 more to go tmr.I'm not so afraid of geo as i was of A maths, cos I was more prepared, or there is only so much you can do for geo,but for A maths, there was plenty to do.Anyway, A maths was...generally not too bad.I left one question undone,but the rest were completed with a sense of assurance that i can get them all right.Hopefully so at least.E maths was...sort of horrible...thought it would be easy,although i really prepared a lot for it too,but i just hope i do ok..I have done my best honestly.Thats the greatest feeling i have.I feel like this time round, any marks will be the measure of my true efforts.So we'll see...
Hm..what else is there to blog about?Not much.On the emotional side,not much either,oh yes except for some very unpleasant conversations with parents.Particularly the opposite gender of the parents.Sighz...
hm..I'm watching sound of music with my mom!Yay, it's gonna be cool.and whats cooler?MY PARENTS WILL BE AWAY!woohooo!!!Sighz..i really love it to have some freedom at night, and less nagging.
CRESCENTIAN DAY is coming!Yepz,i'm in charged of a fringe games stall that all clubs and societies were each assigned to one.Mug slide...or bottle slide will be the more accurate term to describe it.I think it should be ok...and yeah,looking forward to the food and items on sales that day as well as the walkathon..haha..saw some interesting outfits at the dress rehearsal.
Choir..disappointing..very horrible situation happened on mon,especially after i have anticipated it so much.I just really wish we can get out act together and pull this off.We deserve it so much,we worked so hard and we deserve this.It's also my dream to get this.I can't imagine what emotional state i will be in if we dont win.Give us a fighting chance, ms Tham,cos we really want it...very badly...so very badly.
Ok,thats about all the time i have for blogging.Now back to the excitement of revising for geo test and doing a maths homework.~Low level of sarcasm detected~ =)
So hows the week so far?Not too bad.2 tests down. 1 more to go tmr.I'm not so afraid of geo as i was of A maths, cos I was more prepared, or there is only so much you can do for geo,but for A maths, there was plenty to do.Anyway, A maths was...generally not too bad.I left one question undone,but the rest were completed with a sense of assurance that i can get them all right.Hopefully so at least.E maths was...sort of horrible...thought it would be easy,although i really prepared a lot for it too,but i just hope i do ok..I have done my best honestly.Thats the greatest feeling i have.I feel like this time round, any marks will be the measure of my true efforts.So we'll see...
Hm..what else is there to blog about?Not much.On the emotional side,not much either,oh yes except for some very unpleasant conversations with parents.Particularly the opposite gender of the parents.Sighz...
hm..I'm watching sound of music with my mom!Yay, it's gonna be cool.and whats cooler?MY PARENTS WILL BE AWAY!woohooo!!!Sighz..i really love it to have some freedom at night, and less nagging.
CRESCENTIAN DAY is coming!Yepz,i'm in charged of a fringe games stall that all clubs and societies were each assigned to one.Mug slide...or bottle slide will be the more accurate term to describe it.I think it should be ok...and yeah,looking forward to the food and items on sales that day as well as the walkathon..haha..saw some interesting outfits at the dress rehearsal.
Choir..disappointing..very horrible situation happened on mon,especially after i have anticipated it so much.I just really wish we can get out act together and pull this off.We deserve it so much,we worked so hard and we deserve this.It's also my dream to get this.I can't imagine what emotional state i will be in if we dont win.Give us a fighting chance, ms Tham,cos we really want it...very badly...so very badly.
Ok,thats about all the time i have for blogging.Now back to the excitement of revising for geo test and doing a maths homework.~Low level of sarcasm detected~ =)
Saturday, March 26, 2005
Good friday
Sianz..the hols are always not hols..as there are too many things to be done...but then again, my slack attiude won over the drive to revise my work...not total defeat though, I had some good hours of concentrating in geo, e maths and a maths.I have to say i'm nervous about A maths.My foundation of remainder theorem i believe is sound, but the advanced questions shook it badly.I take about 1o mins to solve one freaking question...and i know tests ah, all the questions are so not easy.I might die.Nevertheless, my quest for all As this term still has hope,a lot of hope in fact, cos i'm quite ok with e maths and goe,a but scared but not too much a problem.Now is just building up the speed.
Ive been neglecting my english ,especially my writing skills these few days.So I decided that this blog will be actively used as a avenue for my writing skills to be honed.I hate writing stories,honestly.I'll rather to discussions, though they are more challenging, they are more interesting and involves more critical thinking as well.For today, I have some time off YWAV,thus, some solid time will be spent to write up stuff on this blog about the currently issue at hand, the youth speaking up topic.Sounds relevant to me,and i have a few things to comment on.
Before that begins though, i will take this opportunity to reflect on certain things.
French=ok, the controle was killer,or was it?I'm not too sure but it tells me that my writing skills in french needs to be sharpened too, and i need to read more french books.I have a few at hands,but never had the chance to pick them up.I really to do well for french, cos i believe it will be an asset for me later in life, after all, not too many people master it.
Birthdays=enough said, nothing is done.I might be going out for a movie..or i might not.I'll see how my revision speed progresses later.
BGR=enough...i need to rethink about it.I can't let my mind wander too much into this thing,which is almost non-existant.I'll let God find me the one.And after all, its so common nowadays to be single.Just that u know, my contacts with the opposite gender is so limit-the con of being in girls school =S
Choir,SYF=Not bad progress at all.I think if the sop 2s can control their nerves and we dont go sharp, we will get a gold definitely.Can't wait for choir on mon.Mr Tay is..ahem..the issue is off..I just feel that if i let those feelings rise, they will be unstoppable.Self-control?yupz
ok..here goes my so-called essay
Ive been neglecting my english ,especially my writing skills these few days.So I decided that this blog will be actively used as a avenue for my writing skills to be honed.I hate writing stories,honestly.I'll rather to discussions, though they are more challenging, they are more interesting and involves more critical thinking as well.For today, I have some time off YWAV,thus, some solid time will be spent to write up stuff on this blog about the currently issue at hand, the youth speaking up topic.Sounds relevant to me,and i have a few things to comment on.
Before that begins though, i will take this opportunity to reflect on certain things.
French=ok, the controle was killer,or was it?I'm not too sure but it tells me that my writing skills in french needs to be sharpened too, and i need to read more french books.I have a few at hands,but never had the chance to pick them up.I really to do well for french, cos i believe it will be an asset for me later in life, after all, not too many people master it.
Birthdays=enough said, nothing is done.I might be going out for a movie..or i might not.I'll see how my revision speed progresses later.
BGR=enough...i need to rethink about it.I can't let my mind wander too much into this thing,which is almost non-existant.I'll let God find me the one.And after all, its so common nowadays to be single.Just that u know, my contacts with the opposite gender is so limit-the con of being in girls school =S
Choir,SYF=Not bad progress at all.I think if the sop 2s can control their nerves and we dont go sharp, we will get a gold definitely.Can't wait for choir on mon.Mr Tay is..ahem..the issue is off..I just feel that if i let those feelings rise, they will be unstoppable.Self-control?yupz
ok..here goes my so-called essay
Youths are up and on?
Yes, with the fuss the government and the national newspaper has made for the past few weeks about youths being given more freedom,space and time to speak out, it is inevitable that this topic is chosen for me free writing today.
Dr vivain, the acting minister for community development,sports and youth had said that more space, a park to be exact, will be dedicated to youths.This will the extension of the existing skater park located at orchard rd.The space will be an avenue for youths to showcase the creavitty without restrictions, and to host shows, carry out projects that benefit the community. In addition to that, he also said that equal opportunities will be given to all youths to use their talents to contribute to the country and community...The minister also declared earlier that nothing can stop youths from raising their concerns for the country by speaking up and contribute their ideas at forums.He also welcomes the young to play a part in making the modern singapore unique and a place they called home.
Such is the bold and definite action the government is undetaking to involve youths into playing a greater in the nation-making progress.It not only stops at the community level, but this idea also extends to youths being more involved in policy making and generally, politics.This is the part that interests me.For a long time, singapore politics, as i understand it, has been limited to the elite group of mature politicians and bureaucrats, leaving the voices of the common people and,youths.This is a welcomed change,and it's time it's changed.No one can deny the fact the young voices do matter, although young, but ideas from youths should be valued as they carry the message of the Y generation that the government is governing.This generation is bolder, more outspoken and definitely want more of their voices to be heard.But just how? and will ALL voices of those who want a chance to share be valued?
Certain doubts cross my mind upon this question.
ok..i run out of time again,next time ppl..I'll really continue!Mugging session now =S
Thursday, March 24, 2005
Life is Beautiful
I have changed my blog skin.Not the best i could have chosen, but still, it's the theme and colour of my desire.It's much brighter, much more cheerful and there is a sense of peace when i look at it.The other skin was too dark...and i guess it worsens my mood when i visited it.Oh well, that's all about it for the skin.
The past few days had been very hectic and depressing for me.I'm supposed to be happy, but i'm really not.I feel rotten inside, i feel like the smiles i put up in choir are fake and my cheerfulness is short-lived.I can't understand the complexity of the matter(or izzit too simple to understand?) but i just want to be out of it all.I want to walk away from them all.No more candles, cakes or presents.Nothing...just peace, tranquility and myself,and God.
Just had a row with Mom..on something freaking stupid.I shant be bothered to mention it here.I cant believe we actually argued about that,and yeah..what a damn freaking nice,wonderful,happy birthday i had.I cant forget it, i cant really.I just wished my bday had never come...just wish i have no bdays honestly.why does it have to sux so much on the "sweet" 16.
For this whole weekend, I'll devote myself to studies and preparation for the tests and coming exams.I'm not ready at all for the tests.I just feel like i need to be in control of school life, and i am not.I'm exhausted emotionally, physically and mentally.i just want a break...from it all...
It has been an emotional roller coaster ride these few days too.Ive been completely out of control of my feelings, and my thoughts sometimes.I told Ms Goon in my journal once that i'm finding this rhythm of life soon.I was lying then.I did not,and will I? I dont know.
Then, there were a few ups,like choir going well and myself being able to understand schoolwork more.One more thing,I'm in close contact with God..but sometimes, i just dont see Him there,or maybe I have never looked hard enough to search for Him,or is He carrying me through like the story in footprints?Possible...
Okie,i actually put an update quite long the other day,but blogger just freaking screwd the whole thing and i didnt see the entry published.Oh well...blogger is screwed sometimes.
Thats all about all for now.SYF is coming real soon blah...i;m excited,nervous and yeah...and those emotions you feel before a test and a performance.Also, i'm not too sure if i will get selected for the france exchange trip.I really hope I do.But there is no guarantee success after that interview, in which i basically screwed up the french part,what the hell right...I practise in my head quite a lot of those OTHER questions and none came out.Very unexpected stuff were asked instead.Never mind, what's under the bridge should be let go.And if I dont get to go, i'll go somewhere else.Yupz..
kkz..really Good bye here.I need to study as well.My heachache has finally subsided and almost disappeared.time to MUG. = s
The past few days had been very hectic and depressing for me.I'm supposed to be happy, but i'm really not.I feel rotten inside, i feel like the smiles i put up in choir are fake and my cheerfulness is short-lived.I can't understand the complexity of the matter(or izzit too simple to understand?) but i just want to be out of it all.I want to walk away from them all.No more candles, cakes or presents.Nothing...just peace, tranquility and myself,and God.
Just had a row with Mom..on something freaking stupid.I shant be bothered to mention it here.I cant believe we actually argued about that,and yeah..what a damn freaking nice,wonderful,happy birthday i had.I cant forget it, i cant really.I just wished my bday had never come...just wish i have no bdays honestly.why does it have to sux so much on the "sweet" 16.
For this whole weekend, I'll devote myself to studies and preparation for the tests and coming exams.I'm not ready at all for the tests.I just feel like i need to be in control of school life, and i am not.I'm exhausted emotionally, physically and mentally.i just want a break...from it all...
It has been an emotional roller coaster ride these few days too.Ive been completely out of control of my feelings, and my thoughts sometimes.I told Ms Goon in my journal once that i'm finding this rhythm of life soon.I was lying then.I did not,and will I? I dont know.
Then, there were a few ups,like choir going well and myself being able to understand schoolwork more.One more thing,I'm in close contact with God..but sometimes, i just dont see Him there,or maybe I have never looked hard enough to search for Him,or is He carrying me through like the story in footprints?Possible...
Okie,i actually put an update quite long the other day,but blogger just freaking screwd the whole thing and i didnt see the entry published.Oh well...blogger is screwed sometimes.
Thats all about all for now.SYF is coming real soon blah...i;m excited,nervous and yeah...and those emotions you feel before a test and a performance.Also, i'm not too sure if i will get selected for the france exchange trip.I really hope I do.But there is no guarantee success after that interview, in which i basically screwed up the french part,what the hell right...I practise in my head quite a lot of those OTHER questions and none came out.Very unexpected stuff were asked instead.Never mind, what's under the bridge should be let go.And if I dont get to go, i'll go somewhere else.Yupz..
kkz..really Good bye here.I need to study as well.My heachache has finally subsided and almost disappeared.time to MUG. = s
Friday, March 11, 2005
Only God knows
Wow, it's been really some time since i update this thing.Sighz..to busy to do anything these days.Sec 3 life is really tough, and for me, it's a winding road to success.I did quite badly for common tests.I think it is true that Ive put too much pressure on myself to do well;but that's really not the only factor.I have so little time to do even homework.I'm just exhausted whenever I reached home.I just wish i have a bit more time,and more energy too.I have not neglected God though.I'm proud of this.He's real when we are in our darkest moments.I don't know what He knows...and i'll just have to follow the path He will direct me to.
I'm disappointed with common tests result still as i type this.I guess i have to really focus a lot more next time and work much harder.I truly want my A1s back.
There were a lot of thinking process for me the last few weeks.Ive been thinking about stuff...like Ming wei leaving, like my self doubt of ability,like cca..among other things.The one that preoccupies the most of my thoughts is of cuz ming wei issue.There is nothing i can do really.I just realised that this is in God's divine which i,with my human's capacity of understanding, cannot comprehend.It's just so..hard though.It seems like i never anticipated this, and it just happened.Soon enough he will be gone.I wont be talkin to him the way i am now.No more midnight smses...I really will lose a pillar of strength.
I have also thought, its better i let him go...emotionally as well.If i hang on to those feelings, i might be imprisoned by them in thoughts, and that will lead the downfall of everything else.Am I that "career" oriented?Maybe..then again, maybe not.I just believe that he will find someone else, because no matter how special i can be.I'm only virtually "there".And it hurts to know,i can never move beyond that line.Then again, it's life...
kkz..enough...i'm going to sleep.need lots of it to sing well tmr.Quite nervous but should be ok...and also, first time i will visit fairfield methodist sec school (",)
I'm disappointed with common tests result still as i type this.I guess i have to really focus a lot more next time and work much harder.I truly want my A1s back.
There were a lot of thinking process for me the last few weeks.Ive been thinking about stuff...like Ming wei leaving, like my self doubt of ability,like cca..among other things.The one that preoccupies the most of my thoughts is of cuz ming wei issue.There is nothing i can do really.I just realised that this is in God's divine which i,with my human's capacity of understanding, cannot comprehend.It's just so..hard though.It seems like i never anticipated this, and it just happened.Soon enough he will be gone.I wont be talkin to him the way i am now.No more midnight smses...I really will lose a pillar of strength.
I have also thought, its better i let him go...emotionally as well.If i hang on to those feelings, i might be imprisoned by them in thoughts, and that will lead the downfall of everything else.Am I that "career" oriented?Maybe..then again, maybe not.I just believe that he will find someone else, because no matter how special i can be.I'm only virtually "there".And it hurts to know,i can never move beyond that line.Then again, it's life...
kkz..enough...i'm going to sleep.need lots of it to sing well tmr.Quite nervous but should be ok...and also, first time i will visit fairfield methodist sec school (",)
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